After learning that my dear friend Kim who received her LOA on 8/11 got TA today (YEAH!), I knew for a fact that something was wrong with our case so I called our agency. I was told that they just found out this morning that our LOA had been "misplaced" at the CCAA. It has been on the wrong desk. The story goes that the LOA is now in the right place and should be processed soon.
I am struggling to understand but just realized as I am typing that we do not always understand God's plan, yet we still have to trust and cling to Him. I started reading the book of Job yesterday because I feel as though I really am being tested by Satan. Yes, I trust God when all is well in my life, but have I truly been trusting Him during this most difficult adoption journey? Probably not. Have I asked "why"? You bet! Have I felt forgotten and forsaken by my God? Yes. Have I been angry at God for allowing our adoption journey to be plagued with setbacks while I have watched other families breeze through? Yes, probably so. However, through all of this, I do know beyond any doubt that I am a daughter of the King and that He loves me. I do know that His plan is perfect although it can be mighty painful along the way. I do know that if it weren't for valleys like these, I would not cling to Him so tightly. I do know that there is a mountain after this valley.
Praying for His peace to surround me and for Him to sustain me through it all!