This is how I feel yet again during this adoption journey. Today marks 4 weeks since we received LOA and yet we still wait. I can not fathom why we do not have TA because the CCAA is working. People are receiving LOAs and TAs - just not us! Many 7/24 LOAs have received TAs and now even 7/31 LOAs have started getting their TAs as well. Our agency is asking the CCAA about our case, but the "TA lady" is out now until Monday so we won't know anymore until then. I had so hoped to have Ellie with us for her 2nd birthday, but that is not likely to happen now. Consulate appointments are really booking up for September. What can a mommy do but cry and pray?"He will keep in perfect peace all those who trust in Him." Isaiah 26:3
I have been reciting that verse over and over because I am in desperate need of His peace. I have been so burdened by this wait, and I have not surrendered it to Him as I should have.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, (That's me!!) and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28
"All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalms 139: 16b
I know that God is sovereign, and that He has obviously chosen not to bring us to Ellie until later, but it is still extremely difficult for me to accept.
I'll make it with His help: "I lift my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth." Psalms 121:1-2
Thanks for your prayers and support!
4 comments:
You are in my thoughts and prayers every day. I know your TA will be soon. No, our journeys have not gone exactly like we hoped they would, BUT as long as they go like HE knows they should, we will be O.K. And isn't that what we really want? Nothing helps the pain of this wait except the peace that comes from God alone.We'll be rejoicing soon Jan!
I know this wait is driving you crazy. It is all in his time and not ours and sometimes that is so hard to understand. I struggle with that daily. Praying for you and for a soon TA!
Praying hard this AM as Momma called to tell me about Granny Sara. God has everything in His Hands!
You need me-you call, and I will hit the pavement running.
Just doing my daily check in with hopes of good news. It will come. It will come.
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